Had my first panic attack
after I turned thirteen
And the pain in my chest lasted
'til twenty-three
Ten years of my life
Throwing fists at my mind
I held the stress in my blood
and the fear in my veins
Told myself it was chemical,
I'd never change
Ten years of my life
Same old tears in my eyes
'Cause I always thought
I would be anxious
My heart in a knot, halfway to breaking
And all of my best years were already gone
I always thought I'd be sad,
glad I was wrong
I still remember that night,
I was only fifteen
Saw the wholе world come
crashing down right at my feet
Stood over a grave
And I lost all my faith
'Causе I always thought I would be anxious
My heart in a knot, halfway to breaking
And all of my best years were already gone
I always thought I'd be sad,
glad I was wrong
I'm so glad, I'm so glad,
I'm so glad I was wrong
I was sad, I was sad, I was sad for so long
I'm glad I was wrong
I'm so glad, I'm so glad,
I'm so glad I was wrong
I was sad, I was sad,
I was sad for so long
I'm glad I was wrong
I'm twenty-four and I'm learning
when life wears me thin
I still have the same heart
but I've got thicker skin
Ten years of my life
Now I'm finally alive