And do you think it’s easy
Sometimes I think that I am not real
How to explain to the fish in the tank
That the water can’t always be clear
How to move in the right direction
How to discern the night from day
How to forget the love and laughter
How to freeze and numb the pain
How to hold them close to say
That I am on my way out
But I don’t know how to say goodbye
It’s a starting over
But not ready to fly
I’m leaving all I’ve ever known
For where only I, I do not know
And the closer I get
The farther I have to go.
Raining bougainvillea petals
Smoking candles in the day
How to keep all the letters and words
From trying to run off the page
Trying not to think too much
Still trying to move
in the right direction
Losing picks along the way
Forgetting all the things to say
How to tell them it’s okay?
When I’m not okay?
Cuz I am on my way out
But I don’t know how to say goodbye
It’s a starting over
Am I ready to fly?
I’m leaving all I’ve ever known
For where only I, I do not know
And as I near the open door
I know it’s one I have to close
But the closer I get…
The closer I get
The more I’ll have to grow.