I've tried and tried but I can't find the comfort for the pain
I've tried to use the chemicals to wash it all away
Round and round when I come down, and everything's the same
I can't defeat the cycle, I can't defeat the shame
I've become the only one who tears apart my dreams
I can't control the fear, I'll have to flee the scene
Imitate a damaged world, never feel the pain
Throw myself away
[Chorus]
When will I let go? I'm bleeding in the snow
Will I let go? It's all I've ever known
I'm terrified, I'll never be who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be
[Verse 2]
Kill myself once again just 'cause I'm afraid!
Why am I living a lie, a charade?
I cannot feel the grief inside, never ending suicide!
Why am I alive?
[Chorus]
When will I let go? I'm bleeding in the snow
Will I let go? It's all I've ever known
I'm terrified, I'll never be who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be
[Bridge]
I convince myself I'm strong
Till the feelings overwhelm
I'm on my knees admitting I am weak
Oh God, Please set me free somehow
[Chorus]
When will I let go? I'm bleeding in the snow
Will I let go? It's all I've ever known
I'm terrified, I'll never be who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be
[Outro]
Meant to be
Who I'm meant to be
To be