I bit my nails to the bone this afternoon
I knew they'd figure it out but I never thought that it'd be so soon
Can't bring myself to load this up and take what I deserve, he grabs my hand and says there's so much more for you to learn
I've forgotten how to sleep now
I've got some demons, if I run then they'll just chase me down
I've got an ache, an itch, a taste
I'd hang it up but I can't let these thoughts just go to waste
I'll hear no angels singing when that final breath is exhaled
The numbers burned my skin
There's not a way to pretend
Take your seats and let me start off from the day it began
The man was gone in a minute
They'd never know that I did it
It's the kinda thing ya feel at first but start to forget it
I drink and fuck then smoke my thoughts away so that my brain can rest, the demons in my head won't let me sleep they say its for the best
I don't fit into this skin that I've been placed in, I've got this urge I can't control and I'm not waste in it
A man at 42 with 6 attempted suicides, no emotions felt as I stuck the blade and watched his eyes
I was sick, I was torn, I was so fucked up, could have buried me alive in all the pills that I'd crushed up
I just love playing god, the options at my fingertips, I'll take it slow, you'll be my slave and we'll go through this list
I wanna wear your skin, I wanna see you bleed, I've gotta watch you squirm, fulfill the devils needs
I've got an itch, an ache, a taste
I'll give it up the day I meet my maker face to face
The numbers burned my skin
There's not a way to pretend
Take your seats and let me start off from the day it began
The man was gone in a minute
They'd never know that I did it
It's the kinda thing ya feel at first but start to forget it
I drink and fuck then smoke my thoughts away so that my brain can rest, the demons in my head won't let me sleep they say its for the best
Its depression, aggression, am I awake is the question, what if it swallows me whole before I make my confession
I'm a fraud and a fake, I pick and choose then I take, it's high I can't put down, I think I've made a mistake
I call out to a god just one last time
Maybe he'll show his grace and rid me of this life of mine
It comes with shivers and wet skin
You close your eyes and then you're welcoming them all in
The numbers burned my skin
There's not a way to pretend
Take your seats and let me start off from the day it began
The man was gone in a minute
They'd never know that I did it
It's the kinda thing ya feel at first but start to forget it
I drink and fuck then smoke my thoughts away so that my brain can rest, the demons in my head won't let me sleep they say its for the best