Sometimes life's hard. sometimes it gets worse. once again defeat becomes the death of my purpose. i've gotten past worse things in my course. i can't let trauma change my life for the worse. feeling sorry for myself does nothing at all. keeping conscious of the fact that i could let it fall. gotta keep myself going can't dwell on the bad. look at thwat i've got instead of what i didn't have. instead of blaming everything else. i can only look at myself. i can't let the shit in life discourage me. i gotta take control of the things that are hurting me